THE MOST DIFFICULT DISCERNMENT LESSON
As an Ascended Master in initiation of remembering upon this Earth I have had lots of challenges for the Twin Flame part of the mission I am involved in. I have massive amounts of support by the Family of Light but they are leaving it up to me to learn discernment through and through to the point and graduation of the Spiritual levels.
I have had to navigate years and years of constant tests, challenges of interference which I have learned and grown. There is one I have been having an exceptionally hard time with and this is my Twin Flame/Masculine Counterpart.
I refer to him as this, as this is what I was shown from the very beginning and my experiences with him were initially a very uplifting feeling and recognition of him. It seemed things were orchestrated by pure magic and our connection was Ordained by what seemed a Benevolent powerful force.
However as time has passed and my life has been destroyed with out exaggeration, this connection is surrounded by what is and has been very dark and the interference has been downright evil.
I am writing this in hopes to get some physical response back by the other involved in this…my male counterpart/Twin Flame. This connection between him and I has brought to the light much darkness, confusion, pain, loss and suffering for me and not for him, he has thrived through out this whole time of hell for me in the past 7 years, or so it would seem.
Because I feel him on various levels, on the inside of my physical being, including the heart this leads me to believe he is my Twin Flame. I can quite literally feel his heart as One with my own at times. However I can feel him in my sacral very predominantly as well and this has the ability to control some of my thoughts/life and has done so for the last 7 years. This mind control has caused the destruction in my life as it started and took place along with a series of nefarious attacks carried out against me and my family/friends/relationships.
Leading me to see and feel that this connection has been severely interfered with by Negative Alien Agenda. I feel he is indeed a Soul connection/Twin Flame but I wonder now about the NAA’s part in orchestrating some events that happened in my/our lives that cause serious damage including soul damage.
The reason I am writing this now is I listened to a podcast by Lisa Renee the yesterday and completely resonate and experience much of what she describes in this podcast. I am including the link below. It was very difficult to listen to this but I had to, to get some answers as to what has happened to my life, my once beautiful benevolent existence that has since turned to hell. Also I HAVE had (past tenths) extreme amounts of interference on my technology, mainly social media. But I get it as well on any of my devices by way of interference on my devices signalling and subliminally trying to implant negative fear mongering messages. However simultaneously I have gotten “positive interference” on my technology. So to discern what is what has been difficult. I did get ad blocks on my YouTube which helps a lot as of late, this is why I say “in the past”. I also listen to my radio less and less as it has also been interfered with so this has lessened the harassment. But this is to give you examples of how sever its been for the past years. It has been massive psychological warfare against me that is for sure.
I will give you a serious example again: When my dog Honey was murdered back in November of 2020 by this NAA (Negative Alien Agenda), after burring her, I was driving home listening to the Sirius XM radio. A song came on by Pink Floyd title “in the flesh” and when the Title “In The Flesh” came across the screen the nefarious ones added to the title while it flowed across my computer screen in my car “will you ever see her in the flesh again” or something denoting that. The energy of it was very sinister and the whole ordeal of her death was very sinister.
Any way after experiencing this long drawn out torture of my dog and toward myself that ultimately ruined my life and murdered my dog. I came to realize that this is a very evil group working against my Christ Light, this is the Anti Christ aka Negative Alien Agenda. These evil beings really exist and do not want the second true Coming of the en-mass Christ Light upon Earth.
Just after I published my last blog my computer was interfered with again while watching this video:
It interfered at the point while I was stating “ancestry”. Immediately I felt it to be nefarious and undermining my connection with the masculine twin but as usual I try to think of what else it could mean and this gets me in my mental body to much. I do not deserve this psychological harassment and it has been quite brutal. On top of that I have mind control coming from the masculine via the sacral. This needs to be dealt with as it has been ongoing torture to me on all levels, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual.
If my Twin does have the heart based consciousness of the Christ Consciousness switched on or in other words his connection with Source/God Head is active, he will not let this torture toward me and our Soul Family continue. Whether I am a Soul Family member or not is irrelevant. What matters is someone (ME) is and has been tortured for 7 years straight by the NAA and have been living in hell for the past 4 years straight barely alive and struggling and he is fully telepathic with me.
This leads me to the second conclusion which I hope is not the case: if he does continue to stand by and witness the torture toward me without reaching out to me with a benevolent gesture that he has promised to me for years, this tells me his programming is beyond repair and he is fully overtaken by the NAA. And I say this without judgement as I have come close to being taken over, and so has the whole of humanity and every one living on this Earth next to those that have been completely taken out and I know this as I have witnessed this in Souls of the family body.
Honestly do not think this is the case for my masculine counterpart and I am not sure if this is wishful thinking or if he is on the cusp or cross point. If this is not addressed by him shortly then the shadow/dark path my be the path that he has chosen. Again I don’t feel this and I do feel his benevolence will rise and I will tell you why.
Not only do I feel his pure, innocent benevolent essence, that is inside of my mind, body/spirit complex but I had undeniable messages from Source?My HigherSelf/I AM Presence that did guide me in the most miraculous way this past year as we near the ultimate clean up of the NAA.
I was shown to clean up my body and do a intense detox of a deadly virus/program in my body that mimics “Lyme disease/Auto Immune Disease. This miraculous spiritual message to me started with a tick bite and lead me on the path to do this detoxification. Later I was shown in the same manner my Twin Flame in his pure essence of a Rainbow Light Body with the message of “Many Lives Many Masters”. These two messages blended into a chain of events for purification of the mind, body and spirt for not only myself but Gaia is a MIRACLE. Here is the article of how this happened.
So when I listen to Lisa Renees podcast of the Reclaiming our Christ Consciousness https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/2191-reclaiming-the-christos-body it coincides exactly with the purification my twin and I have been enduring not only personally but on a collective consciousness level as well. Lisa mentions in this podcast that the NAA deep imbedded programming, if the program is not addressed will take over the body/mind as a parasite like host the same as a “tick” causing dis ease in the body. When I listened to this podcast I realized I have been enduring everything that she describes that happens to a person when the NAA program takes over. LUCKILY I have the Grace of God working with me and I survived this and will continue to thrive just like the Earth will. Now what will happen with him? Is he conscious enough to take action for the removal of this program upon Earth and causing havoc in our lives.
I have immense amounts of Love for my masculine counterpart, however when I am in distress and the torture/trauma has yet again got the best of me I feel extremely betrayed and angry with him. This is part of the reason why I have had to do a intense liver and kidney detoxing. My feelings are like my whole existence has seemed to be a dichotomy with this Twin Flame. In the past 2 years it has been very difficult and next to impossible to keep a positive perspective about his choices and how I have been treated as long as the negative ego has been in control. To fully understand what I mean the blog I will include must be read in full. This is important as most of humanity is dealing with this unknowingly.
If I went into detail I could tell you from a electrical, endocrine, nervous system, cellular, blood, organ perspective how this removal of this parasitic/NAA program has been being removed out of me it would explain the whole biology and chemistry of the body infected vs a body in pure love consciousness state. I know this deeply as I have experienced both. This is a very rare undertaking a human could take on and I have for the betterment of humanity (I know) and my own lessons ( I guess).
This dark programming could very well be cast out and a full spiritually mature divine connection could occur from my side of the fence. I am and have been capable of this divine union for a long time. I have just been jaded by this NAA interference. I am not sure where he stands and if he will in fact ever stand up for the truth or not.
With Pure Love and Reverence I am done waiting and the past has to be left behind and a new restoration of my life to begin.
Here is a important message to read regarding this mission and I hope he comes to the Light for the Christ Mission meaning I hope he does invite me to talk with him in the near future, if not than I may have been wrong about many things and I have no problem acknowledging this. I am just done with suffering and the nefarious interference upon this Earth must be exposed with the Light and it will be along with disclosure.
When I feel this connection out with my heart I feel the love and truth of our connection. When I contemplate what I have been through I witnessed the torture and loss because of a evil attack toward me that includes betrayal by him. I want the other person involved to come clean to me and put his cards on the table. So we can, as Spirit has guided me to be of service for the highest good to humanity. I have put as much out there as possible and this last piece is very crucial to the understanding and healing of this situation. As I write this I can actually feel the emotions of my masculine counter part via his heart, the nervousness of having to face this dark side, but it has to be done. I have to be faced and dealt with. The dark that has crept into this connection must be understood.
All in all I have ben constantly in conflict in my mind, back and forth about this connection and his role in this. This is not because there is something wrong with me or my mental state. This is because of severe attack psychologically to me and the lack of honest communication from him and I am being polite putting it this way.
The last part I will add is this:
By the Divine Feminine Principal, I was told this, with out getting into detail of this telepathic transmission this came to me:
“Your Life will be Restored. The past trauma and struggle or apparent defeat is behind you now and this is not the end of your story. What appears to be an ending is simply the forces of Ancient Feminine Power flowing into new pathways and pulling away from old forms so they can transition into new forms and all that has been decaying will spring back into life.
Just as the River Nile surly adjusts its course over time, so too will the River of Light that flows through you, filling you with life force and Divine Energy, to move with innate wisdom. You can trust what is happening to you now and something important is coming back into your life. It might be a lifestyle, practice or relationship that is coming back to life now.
You are guided now to turn your face to the Sun, focus on the Light and Let Go of the Past. The Phoenix is Rising as the Priestess once again and your return to life is at hand. Your restoration and resurrection is upon you now.”
Have faith now. Just as something has fallen away does not mean it will not have value and be able to grow in the present moment. Take what is going to be offered in your life, the rebirth that is happening, into your wide open arms now and be assured that you have transitions through the energies of death and into new Life now.
The past is over, enjoy your rebirth.
‘Life Flows through me unobscured
From past hurts I am now cured
I meet life blossoming anew
My inner light shines bright and true
Isis, Mother of Divine Perfection
Through your Grace I have resurrection”
Isis (her name will be restored also).
The restoration of my life does come with the truth of Divine Love.
In Love and Light
Shelly Sullivan
Of Higher Service
Saishorie~Grace