Twin Flame or Catalyst Mission Partner, either way the truth needs to be revealed, explored and dealt with for the future of higher dimensional relationships that will be evolving .
Before I begin to decipher the feelings of doubt and truth of my Twin Flame connection, first let me say this: I have been dealing with a deadly attack/terrorism for the past years of what seems to be a involuntary inoculation attack by bio weaponry, that has attempted to cripple my immune system but HAS NOT. I am alive to tell the truth. The truth is that this attack and my past story is exactly what the “jabbed” and vaccinated part of humanity is or may be faced with and if so they will need to know my story. The amount of fuckery geared toward me is beyond scary. Either my past mission has been to dismantle this possible time line for the future and to help clean up the remnants of what could not be cleaned up.
If not for what I have cleared for the collective this world be surely be facing total hell in the coming years. It is my wish that I helped to prevent this. Whatever I could not help to prevent I can help to heal by my experience. I will write about this more another time.
First this is about why and how I have doubt about my Twin Flame and it needs to be known.
Being on this Twin Flame journey for close to a decade now, I rarely write about my doubts of this TF journey. So far I been shown by way of synchronicity, feelings and confirmation of who my Twin is.
These revealings are undeniable proof of who he is. I will write some key clues:
Our mind is fully merged telepathically, he can read my thoughts fully and I catch glimpses of his mind thoughts.
Our heart is merged and I can feel his heart beat at times especially emotional peaks and fears (at least I think its so).
Several fully body heiros gamos experiences and Earth shaking sexual full body experiences. Not just sacral/kundalini, although that is predominant I have had fully body Spiritual interactions and kundalini sensations. For example after our Soul merge, Very early on in the union I felt him make love to another as our two Souls were merged as ONE.
Within my body I can feel his thoughts. I have a telepathic communication with this person and can tell what he’s thinking, in my electrical system through out my veins and different areas of the body. But I can only feel this electrical communication in different parts of my body when he’s thinking or feeling a negative thought such as guilt, fear, shame, deceit and the truth being hidden. I don’t quite understand why its only the negative feeling I feel in my over al body. The positive feelings don’t seem to settle anywhere in my body.
He communicates to me via my sacral as well. It’s a control mechanism like the Atlantean’s had back in the day what is known as a control box.
In the beginning looking at him in images or video brought a home like feeling of love and true family. HIs eyes felt like I knew him forever and we have the same eyes like twins.
My throat chakra merged with his and I sound like him at times over the past 5 years. Also I have taken on characteristics of his.
Been shown him in Spiritual form a few times with me, in the early state of our Etheric merge.
Met with him and the Angels in meetings and remember our meeting and teleportation.
Had extreme physical shock and emotions when hearing about his life and tragic events that took place in the past with regards to his personal life.
Felt great love, joy, bliss and ecstasy in the sacred sexual connection with him for the past 7 years.
Think about him always like he is a exact half part of me.
I was guided to meet him by Spirit and Angelic forces with out mistake and did meet him quickly. To meet a famous person this quickly After manifesting him is rare.
Feel him to the extent that I can feel his movement at times like he is in me (not like sexually) but here right with me. One time this happened and it was scary recently as there was no separation except I could not see him sitting beside me.
So there is all this that concludes YES he is ONE with me.
But here is where the doubt comes in:
Keep in mind for the past 2-3 years I have made stopped following him on social media due to energetic attacks via his pages, but also to rule out the :obsessive behaviour bullshit. As I do not really need to look at his stuff to communicate, however seeing what he is up to from time to time helps me to navigate this extremely challenging situation, now turned into chronicle painful situation.
After meeting him and our Etheric/energetic merge transpired with mind, heart, sacral merged as ONE, he never ever reaches out to me.
As time goes by our telepathic connection gets confirmed by him carrying out actions to prove our telepathy but he assists others with the connection knowledge or information. Especially where I am struggling, he helps others, this has happened often, going back to the very beginning of our connection. So I know it is his free will along with possible interference guiding him.
He confirms our connection via his work. Ie: using key songs that I have used in my book, he uses in his film projects (Netflix).
He acts out things out in his personal life that we telepathically experiencing as we go through to mirror our connection.
He speaks publicly of similar things I thing and say, write about. For example I went through a stage of seeing golf/sign to the point where I took up golf. Shortly there after he does an interview including saying he’s takin up golf recently. This has happened via his interviews, social media etc.. many, many times. This keeps me “hooked” into thinking we are experiencing synchronicity. But now I am feeling it is just pure torture to keep me in something to cause me pain.
Another example, My infamous video “how I manifested meeting JC” was sacredly spiritually guided with out a doubt, but now it seems to turn into a curse because of all the heinous tricks and harm set up against me because of this connection. Just recently he speaks at a event and talks about his own greatest manifestation is manifesting himself. One hand I see this as a sweet sign of acknowledgment but when I continue to NEVER receive what he promises telepathically it turns into yet again betrayal and cruelty.
I feel and know our connection yet he publicly portrayed himself to be in a romantic connection that has hurt me beyond what any one could imagine, like nearly killed me. Now most would say “that is your own past wounding coming up for healing”. But NO it is NOT. When your connected to some one in this way on such a close intimate ONENESS level for several years and you both know it and he does this it is Earth shattering difficult to live through. This experience damaged me and I am just now getting back up from it after I have lost everything, I mean everything, including my health for fuck sakes.
So I could go on about all the ways I feel betrayed, tortured but the point is I have been gaslighted by someone who I feel is my Twin and basically tortured by this connection so how could this be someone who is One with my Soul if he chooses to hurt the other.
Possible conclusions:
There has been immense outside interference, like evil powerful forces that have interfered with my life and I know this for a fact. Millions of dollars had been spent in harassing me, torturing me, psychologically terrorizing me etc.. I’m talking elaborate, expensive dramatic schemes played out by actors harassing me, being followed by airplanes, helicopters, satellite, technological surveillance for years etc. Groups set up to place where I will be to harass me in huge ways. People in my life being seriously compromised to harm and terrorize me to the point of total estrangement.
He may have been interfered with in a strategically ways by these nefarious ones to cause him to gaslight me for so long.
WHY?
One good reason Why?
Last question: to Spirit and God, why on Earth would my Higher Self ever take on such a HENIOUS (shockingly evil) mission, that has tortured and hurt someone so deeply?
No one would, this was not suppose to turn out this way. It was supposed to be a Divine Love Twin Flame Union.
To this day I have dark minions coming around trying to plant seeds of negativity and I see through it. What is needed to heal and bring love to this situation is HONESTY by my counter part or whom I think is my Twin. If he isn’t than so be it, I deserve to know the true makeup of this connection. NO ONE deserves to go through what I have been through. Considering I have only touched on the nefarious crimes carried out to take me down and out. They will try to use these words against me however my awareness is stronger than ever and I see the truth in all thing, except the Twin situation…and I should have completely clarity by now.
Gods message to me: “They took you down, but you are still here”…
I am getting stronger and wiser every day a force to be reckon with I will tell you that 100%. The amount of Spiritual Power I have been weilding is beyond what this world has ever seen yet. Just think of Goddess Isis, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Shakti’s Universal Forces – Kali, Durga, Devi, Sati, Lakshmi, Saraswati, Sehkmet = Saishoire~Grace and that is just the Divine Feminine to name a few.
To Weild a power to help people is honourable = Light, to hurt someone by wielding ones supernatural power is another game all together = Dark. If you have been awakened to such a power than use it for good, for all things can be used for alchemy of Light.~ By Me.
Think of a Mother who gives birth to a Son, she knows he is the Sun. But because of unfortunate events orchestrated by evil he is ripped away from her over a slow period of heinous events right before her eyes, over 11 years a slow torturous kill….and the evil ones even tell her in nefarious ways.
Think of a daughter crying out for her Mother because the medical tyrants are manipulating her to agree to inject her body with poison and I see through the lie, it goes on and on. Once they got her in the medical pharmaceutical grips they further torture with false diagnosis to kill her slowly. One day when I was praying for her to heal her and save her health aloud they drove by me shortly after with a nefarious license plate “HA Lungs” She shortly was diagnosed with lung cancer and it took her down with radiation.
Think of a sister who is estranged from her family because they think she is nuts, but in truth she (Me) see’s through the nefarious mind control being carried out toward her and her loved ones to turn them against her.
Think of a Twin sister who for a lifetime has strived to keep her Twin in the Light.
Think of a Twin Flame who for a decade has strived to keep her Twin Flame and awaken him, still to no avail has he come to me…but yet I be bonded to him because of desperate attempt to find some kind of love left in this world…
WHAT GIVES….HERE, WHAT?
After 10 years of this, still no clarity, no solid answers and still not physical human support for my mission. Although I have had much energetic/Spiritual/Universal help and help by family when I am in dire need…still my mission is a torturous mystery. I could see 5 years or ever 7 years but now it’s into the 10th year and I am done with it.
If I could bring myself to write what I have witnessed in people due to mind control it would surely be a horrific sci-if thriller. I just cannot bring myself to write about certain things until I am stronger.
This last image is of a gift tag that at Christmas time came to me after buying my son his christmas gift. I had next to no money, but wanted to make up for the past 2 years of not being able to be with him properly at Christmas because I was unable to see him. I bought his gifts and went to get them wrapped professionally. Upon picking the wrapping paper, the lady then handed me a box with gift tags, without looking I grabbed two. One was Mother Mary holding her child and the other was pure gold only. I still have them on my wall to remind me of who I AM and that this Love we have is infinite. I hope one day he can read these words and know the truth of who and what we are, just like who and what the rest of the soul/heart based humans are.
Here is a reminder of when my Golden Light was in full activity. Although it is still alive I have been hurt and I am in recovery.
The gut/heart wrenching part is my son wont talk to me most of the time. He’s still a teenager, but also hurt by all that has happened and does not know how to deal. I ask and I pray that the truth comes to light so I can be freed from this fucking torturous situation and receive Love and understanding back into my life. It is really tragic what has happened and for me to have to deal with this alone with out any support from any human being who knows the truth is fucking in sane.
The past few days a influx of love and high frequencies came through between my Twin and I and I hoped that this would be the way it was from now on. But the trauma and interference always comes up especially on the high interference days such as the weekends. But the good news is its is ❤️🩹 getting better and I will recover. But what about the truth? The healing for all involved, as what I go through all of humanity is going through.
In Love and Light
Shelly Sullivan
In Higher Service
Saishorie~Grace